After long months of avoiding my memoir, I was both terrified and excited to work on it again. The key to my success, I decided, would be a Classic Royal typewriter in turquoise.

Since this wasn't the first time I have fantasized about a savior, I recognized the fear and hope in my shopping cart: I Can't Do It and This Thing is the Solution.

Instead, I decided to trust myself to start on my own, using turtle steps and finding what sparks joy. Maybe I'll get a typewriter someday, maybe I won't: but I need to remember it's the equipment inside my head that matters.